Good Bye to my beloved studio dog Lola

Good Bye to my Beloved studio dog Lola

I am sad to say that my dear dog Lola passed away yesterday evening. I had to put her down after she suffered several debilitating seizures.

I never knew how much I loved her till she was gone. Over the past 8yrs she has been by my side. She had watched me paint many of my paintings. She was my studio dog. She followed me where ever I went. She went to University with me and would quietly watch as instructors would critique my paintings, most of the time they didn't even know she was in the class with me. She came to work with me during the summer when I worked at a campground greeting campers. She was there when my grandpa, my co-worker, and my great grandmother passed away. She was there when I got married and when I came home from signing the divorce papers. She was there when my children were born and she patiently helped me to teach them about what the word 'gentle' meant. She was a great friend to my son who was so proud when he could get her to do tricks. She often let my kids dress her up. She would come and get me in my studio whenever my youngest would wake up from her nap. 

I woke up broken hearted with no reason to get out of bed. I am not a morning person and would often resent having to wake up to let her out. This morning I wish I had to. It's good to have a reason to get up, even if it is a small fury one.

I kept walking over to her dish to give her water out of habit, but she's no longer here. I had to put away her dog dish hoping it would help. I keep thinking I see her, and I look for her, out of habit before I go outside. I took the kids for a walk and caught myself thinking if I should take her with me. It's hard to change to the fact that a constant that has quietly been by my side and I had taken for granted is no longer here.

I miss my studio dog Lola. She was an important part of my family and a great friend and I miss her dearly.